Let me just start by saying that I am rarely on "schedule" with my homeschooling. I start the year in the fall so well with new curriculum and excited little minds. Then this time of year comes when everyone else is finishing up and we are still plugging away. I must not mind it so much or I wouldn't repeat the ritual year after year.
This year it is bugging me a little more. I am having some concerns. My soon to be 7
th grader is going to start taking some electives at the junior high. This means less time with him. Slowly he will integrate into a full time high school schedule (that's the plan for now anyway). I am already having withdrawals. :)
Second, I wonder how long I can keep homeschooling and keep my sanity. For so many years I never took a break for myself other than the
occasional dinner with a family member or one of my few close friends. While I appreciate these short breaks I have found that they are not enough for me now. I need some space and in a big way. I love my children, I love that we have
homeschooled but I still have a two year old (soon to be three) and the thought of continuing on for all of the years involved puts me into a slight depression of sorts.
Perhaps I will make more scheduled breaks. The problem is that for that to happen someone has to take care of the kids so I have to impose on someone and that means someone has to miss work. It also seems to take a lot of money to take "breaks". I just came back from a trip and realized that most cities even charge for parking no matter where you are. It was an eye opener and made me realize how little I actually get out.
My solution is to save my pennies, get coupon happy, manage my time wisely and find small ways each day to have little breaks while building up for the real
rejuvenating breaks that I seem to need. When the realization that these breaks were needed came to my attention I felt guilt and shame and really I felt selfish. Then I realized that it is a mid-life crisis of sorts because for 15 years other people and things have come first. Big mistake. That was unwise on my part. For now, instead of completely freaking out I will just choose to make little changes here and there in hopes that the overall picture will improve with homeschooling. What I know for sure is that my kids are better off for having been
homeschooled thus far.
For anyone who reads this, forgive me for thinking out loud. Blogging is great therapy! lol